Brian Dolzani, If I Don't Speak a Word
Dolzani's TRACK-BY-TRACK Commentary:
-Older now: older and wiser, contemplative, self-learning, sort of a second coming-of-age.
-Reasons: rejecting toxic relationship, what's not good for you, also let go and let life carry us.
-Whether or Not: seeking faith, truth, questioning existence and redemption, admitting bad habits (some metaphorical).
-Before Goodnight: addressing dissatisfaction in relationship. Wondering if there's something better, knowing the pitfalls of long term relationship, realizing there are ways to both hurt and have a healthier relationship.
-Sail This Sea: struggling in relationship, knowing something's missing in you, and knowing you don't want to be alone either. Wanting badly to work it out. Asking the other person to see you clearly and not expect you to be more or different than you are. Also knowing 'we've been here before.'
-Broken: acknowledging the poor state that one is in. Digging for hope in healing, facing one's past, taking responsibility for it, knowing one can't be held up by someone else forever. Letting things break instead of being falsely held together in a dependent way.
-Not As Lonely: a peppier ode to finding solace in separateness and being alone vs. codependent.
-Hey Dad: detailed story of loss of father when young, a letter to a Deceased father.
-Wilted: story of a family who can't connect, a tough commentary on one's family. Breaking the myth of happily ever after. Putting hope in souls 'in love again'. But for now just wilting day after day, things aren't changing for the better.
-Fair: coming to terms with a relationship that wasn't what you expected. 'Nothing about this life is fair'.
-Autumn in Central Park: contemplation on love, what one needs to fill one's heart. Knowing oneself, one's heart, seeing so many other potential mates. Who's right? What do I want?
-I'm Sorry Now: apology for being difficult in relationship. Wanting to stand up for oneself. Acknowledging hurt, hate, pain, falling away from relationship. Hard to be away from someone. Wanting true love even with one's faults, for not speaking up and being afraid of oneself and taking it out on the other. The unfairness of one's behavior in relationship.
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